Today is the first day to the rest of my life...

This is me right now. At my heaviest. 285lbs.  I am only 5'4.

Funny how it works.  You talk about it for months, and you have good intentions, but you never get around to it.  You know that eating that piece of cake is going to go straight to your thighs, but you tell yourself  "This is the last time. Tomorrow I will start my new diet"  Then one morning you wake up, you step on the scale, and you realize that maybe you had one too many pieces of cake, one too many hand fulls of chips, one too many "last bites".  And that is the day you either give up or push forward. 

I am choosing to push forward.  

When I went to bed last night, I did not have a plan "to lose weight" in place.   

It wasnt until this morning when I decided, "what the heck.... let's see how much I weigh"... 
"WOW! I have gained 25lbs in 6 months"

And... I cried.
 

My son is almost 10 months old and I weigh more now than I did at 9 months pregnant. I am not going to make excuses for myself like I have been doing over the last 15 years.  The truth is I am lazy.  I didnt get here overnight.  I didnt just suddenly wake up fat.  I did this to myself, and I have refused to do anything about it.


I weigh 285lbs. I am a size 24/26.

That means my knees, my back, and my ankles are carrying around the weight of 2 people EVERYDAY! No wonder I have back problems.  No wonder my knees give out on me!

Not anymore.  I REFUSE to be this person any longer.  I am now determined to become the person I should have been 15 years ago.  

My goals for myself right now:

Stop drinking soda (I will allow myself 1 Diet soda a day)

Drink 8 glasses of water a day

Exercise for 30 minutes AT LEAST 4 time a week

Track my calories EVERY DAY

Hold myself accountable for my eating habits

Write in my blog  at least once a week

I will to lose 2lbs a week.  

I will to weigh under 200lbs by 2012

From this day forward, I will love myself and the person I am becoming.  I will no longer hate the person staring back at me in the mirror, because I am changing my life.  I am becoming the best person I can.